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Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
3:18 pm - Haven't updated in quite some time, but this was fun.

create your own visited states map
or check out these Google Hacks.

It makes me realize how little I have traveled. I definitly wanna visit California someday. Texas would be fun, Seattle, Chicago, Detroit, and definitly Vegas!

This is what I hope my map will look like within the next 5 years:

create your own visited states map
or check out these Google Hacks.

current mood: bored

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Thursday, April 14th, 2005
11:44 pm - and it's so hard... to say goodbye... to my homies...
I know I haven't written in a while, but there was just some things I wanted to talk about.

My friend Fitzy passed away last week. I couldn't believe it when my friend called me at work Friday afternoon and told me. At first I thought it was a joke (not funny at all), but she said she was for real, he's really gone. I guess I had it in the back of my mind that it could still be a joke until Monday, when I saw his obituary in the paper. It was so weird to see his picture there. 21 years old, that's way too young. I went to the wake yesterday, there were so many people there, he was the type of kid that everyone knew and loved. I will never forget the moment I walked in and saw him. I couldn't believe it was really him, lying in that casket. I saw so many of my close friends break down and cry. The most macho and strongest guys I know couldn't hold it in. I don't think there was a dry eye in the place.
Today was the funeral, same as yesterday pretty much. Sooo many people. So many young men and women not knowing what to think or how to be. So many questions. Why did this have to happen? Why Fitz? The funeral is supposed to bring closure, yet I still feel like there should be more. How can this really be the last time we get to see him? Our last goodbye. What an emotional week it has been. Things will get better though. Time heals all wounds, or it's supposed to anyways.

We will never die alone
Juggalos will carry on
Swing our hatchets if we must
Each and every one of us
We will never die alone
Juggalos will carry on
Swing our hatchets if we must
Each and every one of us
We will never die alone
Juggalos will carry on
Swing our hatchets if we must
Each and every one of us

R.I.P. Fitzy

Mike Fitzgerald
June 4, 1983 - April 8, 2005

current mood: numb

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Friday, October 8th, 2004
1:36 pm
Hmmmm... it has definitly been a while since I've updated. I never really check up on the LJ anymore. But, for anyone wwho's interested, I'll bring you up to date.

Hmmm... I last updated in May, so let's start there. I started working at Mobil in May, it's not the greatest job, but it's aright for now. I work Saturdays and Sundays 2-11pm, and I pick up a Friday or Monday (9am-11pm) sometimes too. I'm looking for another job though, because I need more hours.

June, I graduated (finally.) I had plans to move to Boston and go to Ben Franklin Institute for Architectural Engineering, but... just because the government won't give you any money because they think your parents make too much doesn't necessarily mean that your parents are going to (or can afford to) pay for you either. So, I got screwed on the whole money thing, thus I am "taking a year off."
I'm not too happy about it because I really wanted to get outta here, and I want to be in Boston more than anything. I was thinking about moving there anyways, but I've decided I'm going to wait until after the winter and snow and freezingness is over, and try to save some money in the process.

But, let's talk about some less dissapointing stuff. July! July was awesome. My trip to Ohio (for the Gathering of the Juggalos) and my birthday there.

The_Gathering_was...Collapse )

Well... this has been a long entry and I'm getting hungry so I'll finish it later. I still have 4 days worth of partying (including the last night, which was my birthday) to tell you all about!

current mood: excited

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Sunday, May 9th, 2004
2:46 pm

for some reason this thing never worked.

current mood: bored

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Friday, February 20th, 2004
2:13 am - Denny's...
Wow, I haven't written much in a while. But tonight I'm bored, so I figured why not. Some interesting stuff has happened. Hmmm...

Well, I saw Staind on valentine's day. I love Aaron Lewis. They were excellent, and they put on the best acoustic set you'll ever see.

Oh, the funniest thing happened tuesday night. Well, it wasn't really very funny at the time. Actually, it kinda sucked, but it's funny now. lol. So, here's the story...

So, me and Carla were on our way to Walmart (in Salem) and Carla wanted to go to Denny's. I only had like $5 and I wasn't really hungry so I didn't really wanna go, or I atleast wanted to go to Walmart first, but nooo... Carla says we're goin to Denny's, so ok. lol. We eat, everything's good, normal, whatever. It's about 1am and we're just sitting there having a cigarette, waiting for the check, and Carla reaches in her pocket... and realizes she doesn't have her wallet. Oh no. What the fuck are we gonna do now? So I go out to the car to see if her wallet is in there. Nope. Then she goes out to the car to look. Nope. Carla wants me to wait there (for like an hour) while she goes home and gets money. I don't think so. So I explain what to the waitress that we have to drive all the way back to Lowell to get her wallet. I had to give the waitress my ID so we could drive all the way back to Lowell, get Carla's wallet, and drive all the way back to Salem and pay. lol.
Moral of the story: Always check your pants before you fill your stomach.

current mood: cold

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Saturday, January 10th, 2004
10:35 pm - it'll never work
i just don't get
why i let
this jealousy
consume me,
but it does.
it never was
what i had
hoped so bad
it would be.
i can't see
all the things
this game brings,
all the crap.
i feel trapped
in this game.
always the same.
never change.

usually when i write it sucks, but i like this one. maybe because it makes so much sense to me right now.

current mood: depressed

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Saturday, July 12th, 2003
2:49 am
Our Lady Peace - "Life"

how many times have you been pushed around?

was anybody there?
does anybody care?
how many times have your friends let you down?
was anybody there?
did anybody stare?

how many times have your friends let you down?
just open up your heart
just open up your mind
how many times has your faith slipped away?
well, is anybody safe?
does anybody pray?

oh, life is waiting for you
it's all fucked up, but we're alive
oh, life is waiting for you
it's all fucked up, but we'll survive

how many days have you just slept away?
is everybody high?
is everyone afraid?
how many times have you wished you were strong?
have they ever seen your heart?
have they ever seen your pain?

oh, life is waiting for you
it's all fucked up, but we're alive
oh, life is waiting for you
it's all fucked up, but we'll survive

she gets high
she gets lost
she gets drowned by the cost
twice a day, every week, and all of life

she gets high
she gets lost
she gets drowned by the cost
twice a day, every week, and all of life

oh, life is waiting for you
it's all fucked up, but we're alive
oh, life is waiting for you
it's all fucked up, but we'll survive

oh, life is waiting for you
it's all fucked up, but we're alive
oh, life is waiting for you
it's all fucked up, but we're alive
all fucked up, but we'll survive
all fucked up, but we're alive
all fucked up, but i will, i will survive...

current mood: pensive

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Friday, July 11th, 2003
8:07 pm
Would I Survive A Pit Match Against Clinton And Bush
12% chance Bush would kill you.
0% chance Clinton would kill you.
0% chance he would sexually harass you.
88% chance you would kill them.
Enter Combat

What is my spectrum?

I am blue: My main color is blue. I am a little bitter when people choose a blissfully ignorant aproach to life. I try to see things for the way they really are.

What is my spectrum?

You are NEMO!
What Finding Nemo Character are You?

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Gangsta Bitch!
You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you
like it rough, and of course you like to pop a
cap in any wiggers ass.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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4:19 am
My College Is:
Chillin Night School
Students at Chillin Night School goof off a lot.
The average student has sex 10 times a month.
Weed is the drug of choice.
The average GPA is 3

My Romance Meter
Optimist 65%
35% Cynic
Close 68%
32% Distant
Long Term 56%
44% Brief
What does my romance meter read?

current mood: bored

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Thursday, July 3rd, 2003
3:12 am
i don't know what to do anymore. i don't know what more i can do. i'm struggling to hold on to what little control over my life i have left.
i'm sick of being judged.
i'm sick of being called a loser.
i'm sick of being looked down on.
i'm sick of letting other people jerk me around.
i'd give up, but i'm sick of giving up too.
i need to make some changes; meet some new people, figure out what i want. i need to say some things to some people, but i honestly don't know if they'd even care.
i'm gonna be 18 in a couple weeks. i feel like i should know what i want by now. i feel like i'm falling behind. maybe what people say about me is true. maybe i am a loser. i'm just sick of hearing it and all the other bull shit from everyone. it seems like everyone has something to say, but never anything usefull.

current mood: unsure of how to feel

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Saturday, June 7th, 2003
7:37 pm - everyone loves to hate...
stupid personality tests that are somewhat accurate, but really are just plain useless

subtle flirt

You are a SUBTLE Flirt!

This is the female equivalent of "the strong and silent type."

Or, the whole "still waters run deep" thing.

And that makes you dangerous. Oh, yes…dangerous.

You lull men (and competitive women) into a false sense of security.

By appearing nonthreatening, quiet and unassuming, you can strike at the right moment, when no one's expecting it.

It's a method that’s tried and true over the ages and it works wonders for you.

So go on, with your sneaky self, Ms. Covert Ops.

What Kind of Flirt Are *You*?

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You Are A Juicy Kisser!

About Your Kissing Style:

Your lips are totally kissable baby, and you know how to use them.

You are the perfect - with the right combo of lips and tongue.

It's important to flaunt it, so kiss early and often on dates!

What Your Kissing Style Says About You:

You're 100% hot, and you know it. You're all about being sexy, all the time.

You have no trouble scoring dates or kisses ...

Just trouble getting rid of jealous people trying to show you up!

You attract attention from every hot guy and girl... even before you show off your kissing skills.

Your Personal Kissing Matches and Mismatches:

Go out with another Juicy Kisser and you'll be the power couple of the party. Sure, you'll have a ton of
hot kisses, but only after everyone there has checked you guys out. Hook it up with a
Romantic Kisser and you may have found your soulmate.
Romantic Kissers will be attracted to your appeal, and you'll appreciate their loyalty.

Keep away from Carnal Kissers! They'll just try to play you for sex, and
ruin your reputation in a heartbeat. And Freaky Kissers are way too wild and
rough for your style. You prefer pleasure to pain, thank you very much.

How Do *You* Kiss?

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half virgin half whore

You Are 1/2 Virgin, 1/2 Whore!

50-50, baby! Ah, you are fairly normal. You have sex, though to you it's not more exciting than a new designer outfit.

Secretly, you are a adventurous soul just waiting for someone to take control. Open up a little, and you'll show your guy the best sex ever.

There's nothing to be afraid of - except fainting from multiple orgasms!

You are great at kissing, getting yourself off, and using your hands.

What Do Girls Whisper Behind Your Back? Virgin or Whore Quiz Tells All!

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current mood: blah

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Friday, May 9th, 2003
5:02 pm - i am innocent! seeeeee....
Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
Never taken out of the packaging
Has yet to see self in mirror
Sex Drive 86.8%
The Pope is envious
Done the nasty, but not creatively
Gayness 89.3%
Repressed, are we?
Fucking Sick95.6%
Refreshingly normal
You are 75.7% pure
Average Score: 69.9%

INNOCENT, ya, that's right...

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Wednesday, May 7th, 2003
1:06 am - never thought i would forget this hate, then a phone call made me realize i'm wrong...
how's life goin for jackie? let's see... last time i updated i think i said school was goin good and everything else sucked. well, i fucked up in school too. the last 2 weeks of the semester i managed to miss history class every day, putting me way over the number of absences i'm allowed, and so i fail. also, i have to write like 3 papers by the 16th or i fail english too.


family shit is shitty, that's all i have to say about that for now. i don't even wanna get into it.

friends are ehhh... some good, some bad, you know how it is. but lately i've been trying to figure out which ones i can trust and which ones aren't worth the time

on a positive note, i got my SAT scores last week: 620 math, 560 verbal (1180 all together). not bad, but i wanted to get in the 1200's. i'll probably take them again, so it's all good.

current mood: high

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Sunday, March 16th, 2003
3:08 am - wow, it's been a while
damn, i haven't updated in a long time. i don't know why, it's not like i've been super busy or anything.
i can't even begin to explain all the bull shit's that been goin on lately, so i won't even bother tryin.
school's goin good, other than that life sucks, and that's about all i can say at the moment.


current mood: ridiculously sober

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Sunday, November 17th, 2002
9:53 pm - Rawr... :(

current mood: anxious

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Thursday, August 22nd, 2002
5:07 pm
I love convincing my mom that I have no clothes and absolutely NEED new ones. Went to the Rockingham mall today. Back to school is the best excuse ever for conning your parents into buying you everything you want. I usually can't get my mom to buy me more than a pair of pants and a couple shirts at a time, because they're so damn expensive. But... today all pants were $10 off, and rock t-shirts were buy 1 get 1 ½ off, so I got lots of stuff! :) Here's what I got:

Kikwear pants
Greed jeans
Altered Mind jeans
System of a Down shirt
Mushroomhead shirt
Independent shirt
Independent long-sleeve shirt
Independent belt

Yay for sales!!!

And to anyone who doesn't care about what I bought, next time don't read it. :)

current mood: excited

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Wednesday, July 31st, 2002
3:41 am
Alright, the trippiest thing just happened to me, like ½ an hour ago. I was just sitting in my living room watching tv, and I saw something flying around the kitchen, I was like what the fuck? At first, I thought it was a bird, and I was like how the fuck did it get in?!?!? I went out in the kitchen and it was a bat! It was flying all around and shit. lol, so I woke up my parents. They came downstairs, and I didn't see it anywhere. lol, I was like oh no, they're gonna think I'm crazy or drunk or something. After about 5 or 10 minutes, I finally saw it again. My mom was so funny, every time it came near her, she would jump and start swinging the broom around. lol, I just wish that I could've gotten it on tape. It was definetly an America's Funniest Videos moment. Anyways, we opened the front door, and eventually it flew out.

current mood: awake

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Saturday, July 20th, 2002
11:04 pm - Happy Birthday to me?
Well, I haven't updated in a while. I guess I've just been lazy. As you can see by the fact that I'm sitting in my house on a Saturday night, it's not because I've been busy. Yesterday was my birthday. 17. Seventeen. Hmmmm... Just a new number I suppose. Well, I had fun last night, chilled, smoked, drank a little, but I'm not a big drinker. I was pretty stoned, but now I'm here, sober, wishing I was somewhere else. Pretty boring summer this has been, although I've had some fun times, I hope that it gets a lot better, and soon. I'm not even gonna get into my guy problems and shit right now. That would just take too much typing. It's not even really a problem, just something that I need to stop thinking about, and let happen. Or at least that's what people tell me. Well, I guess I'm done "updating" for now. Peace.

current mood: pensive

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Tuesday, June 25th, 2002
7:32 pm - &%$#@!

Who's your daddy?? Find out @ blackhole

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Sunday, June 2nd, 2002
10:16 pm

What Jelly Belly flavor are you? I'm -

Find your flavor here!

My jounral has become an endless pit of online personality tests. Oh well, doesn't bother me. I'll update soon though. I've just been lazy lately, and there's too much going on, I never know what to write about first. I just found out some dissapointing news, but that's a long story, and I'm not gonna get into it. I'll, update soon though, peace.


current mood: disappointed

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